5 days

There are five days left til the wedding and today is not a good day. I am trying so hard to not get stressed over every little thing but its a losing battle. I am a very organized person and I have to do things in a certain way. When things are not done in that certain way, I feel as if I am losing control. I don't like change but I can handle it. There are too many damn changes happening to this wedding and its driving me crazy!

We have rehearsal on Friday and many of the essential wedding party members will not be there for various reasons. This was all dumped on me within the last week so...I'm not a happy camper but I can't change people's schedules. Plus I had to deal with the church wedding planner and she informed me of so much more stuff that I was not aware of. We've had a few phone calls but why do I find out everything the week of my wedding?

I'm trying to get as much done so that I don't have to worry about everything on my wedding day. This is when it would be amazing to have a wedding planner...

And I know I can't control the timeline of the day but...its hard not to fuss over every since second when you can get charged by the church, the pastor, and the musicians. We have spent so much money on this wedding and I am not trying to give out a penny more! lol.

I have been on the phone all day and there is no end in sight...Sigh.

So in the middle of my long angst ridden post, I received a phone call from my future sister in law who has graciously extended an offer to oversee everything. I feel like a weight has been lifted because I've had friends offer to help for certain areas but not for everything. Thank God for family!

Ok...back to my phone calls with much higher spirits! Thanks for allowing me to rant.